Friday, October 2, 2009

do you operate from your information or ?

In the Psychic world, there is a phrase we use…….“losing your space”. 

The implications, in my mind, are short-term and long-term.
You ‘lose your space’ when you allow yourself to be influenced by others Energy.
Or maybe you lost your space to the Lies you hold in your belief system.
An influence, that affects your ability to access Your own wisdom.
Others “Energy” maybe their thoughts, beliefs, emotions or expectations of you. Conscious or unconscious.
Then there are the Contracts you choose to keep….with people or certain patterns....because there is an Incentive for you.
When these energies influence……you go off-balance (spiritually) and lose your connection to your own wisdom……short-term or long-term.
When any aspect of your day or life is influenced by someone else's expectation then that place is the… 'absence of You' or your information.

How can you tell?
So…how can you tell you “lost your space”?
The obvious cases show up as confusion, doubts, feeling/acting ‘beside yourself’ or general lack of clarity.
Remember the times you knew what to say, what to do and had no doubts whatsoever?
That was You in touch with, and connected to, Your own resources.
Your wisdom or your Higher Self, If you may.
In other cases the effect of “losing your space” is long-term. You may not have a clue until much later. Weeks. Months. Years. Lifetimes?
From the view point of your Spiritual Anatomy, you lose access to wisdom from your Higher Self……which is represented by eight Chakra.
Among other things, your eight Chakra holds information about your “life blueprint” - experiences and lessons you have setup as Soul setup in order to…..propel your evolution.
Now the energy or information in eight Chakra influences your Crown Chakra.
Your Crown Chakra (7th) represents your Knowingness or your access to your Spiritual information……..that is uniquely You.
The energy/information in this Chakra in turn influences energy/information in other six Chakras:
-your clairvoyance, ability to see yourself and your place in the world (6th chakra),
-ability to express You (5th chakra),
-relationship with others, your relationship with you...your self-image (4th chakra),
-your ability to manifest and own your power (3rd chakra)…………and so on.
The space where others energy occupy is….... absence of You .
Freedom, then comes from clearing the energies that control You.
With this freedom comes the allowance to embody more of You.

Beliefs and Lies
A belief is something you believe to be true. True or not, it seems to work for You.
A Lie maybe defined as your Truth that has outlived it’s usefulness.
Unaware of shelf life, we maybe trying to live something that does not work for us anymore. Rather frustratingly sometimes.
To paraphrase someone, a belief is like a Boat. You might need the Boat to get to the shore.
But maybe it’s futile to carry the boat around on land, strapped to your back, just because it served you well on water?
So the real question maybe is…..are you Aware when you get ashore?
Another definition could be…..what is True for someone else may not be True for you. Hence a Lie for You.
How many times has a parent, a partner, friend, institution, a teacher imposed their belief because it really works for Them?
As well intentioned and caring as it could have been, maybe it didn’t quite resonate with You?

Contracts, your incentive
Influences can be short-term or long-term.
Maybe in peak hour traffic you found yourself rushing 10 over speed limit not able to deal with an aggressive driver who just would not get off your tail.
Maybe you said Yes when you really wanted to say No, feeling invisibly coerced by a boss or a partner.
Maybe to make them happy or fearing disapproval.
Whatever the reasons.
These are examples of short-term influence.
You ‘lose your space’ when you allow yourself to be influenced by other people’s Energy
Notice what I’m saying…… you allowed it.
Not as a blame but from a position of empowerment. Taking ownership for what you manifested in life.
To just say “other people’s energy influences you” is part of the story.
The other part is….you, the protagonist of your life. You, from a Soul-level, created the blue print for your life.
What you agree with, influences you.
What you resist, has power over you.
What has no charge for you, has no affect on you.
How many times have we secretly agreed with someone who deprecated our intellect, worth or looks………because a part of us held a negative self-image which silently concurred?
Even though intellectually we knew that was not true.
What you agree with is an contract you made, from a soul level.
An contract made to have an Experience, to propel your Soul evolution.
A contract is something you enter into because there is an incentive for you.
There are no victims.
Sometimes staying a Victim and not owning our power can be an incentive, as twisted as it sounds, because we carry a misguided or outdated belief (hence a Lie) that we cannot trust ourselves with power.
These maybe people who misused power in a past life. but there is a reason it's called Past's Past.
An exasperated Psychic friend of mine, exclaimed one day “how can my brother be happy and content with a 9-5 job, two car garage and a big house with a picket fence?”
"Why do I not want the same thing? What's wrong with me? I've tried that but it only made me happy short term"
What he really wanted to do was write a book, travel all over, heal and teach.
In my mind, his brother was living in alignment with was true for him.
But that did not work for my friend.
Yet he tried, tries, because he feels that's what he is supposed to do.
That supposed to was him trying to fulfill a cultural contract that defined what success meant.
A Contract that was not in alignment with him. Though it really worked well for rest of his family.
In this case he had "lost his space" (or his connection to his wisdom) to the energy of a cultural contract which now controlled the definition of what success should look like.
There is some incentive.
Until there continues to be an incentive people dont break Contracts....though they have the Free Will to.
This can be repeated life time after life time.

On becoming More of You
An oversimplified statement of the process would be….for those seeking connection to their own wisdom, growth is akin to peeling the layers of the onion.
With each layer peeled, you lose what is not You and gain more of You.
A process that Embodies Your wisdom along the way. Embodiment, a conscious access of your wisdom.
So what is the effect of becoming more of You?
As you start clearing what is Not You and gain access to You, facets of your life built on Not You....starts to reconfigure or just fall apart.
Relationships, job, outlook on life, concepts about money….. to name some facets.
Now you can start to align with you are truly happy, content and at peace with.
But there are no short cuts. No pill you can pop. None I know off anyway.
This may require finding Tools and be willing to be self-aware...without judgment. Of oneself or others.
Ultimately, there is no Right path. The path you are attracted to is Right for You.
If you outgrow it, the next path awaits.
On the other hand trying to stick to a path when you're done, either for not wanting to look flaky or whatever reason, is like walking on land with the Boat strapped to your back.

clairvoyance, your natural born ability

The word Clairvoyance evokes thoughts like "mind reading" and "seeing the future". It gets complicated with Hollywood's dramatic projections of what a Clairvoyant does. 
Not to mention, we fear what we do not know. Fear spins tall tales.
The result is lot of distortion around this subject.
From a spiritual seeker's perspective, my notion of Clairvoyance is...."clear seeing".

Seeing or accessing information you need- insight into a situation or information to make a decision.
All of us are "wired" for Clairvoyance. Some of us access it consistently and some of us don't.
Try this.
Sit somewhere you are comfortable.
Close your eyes. Take couple of deep breaths.
With your eyes closed, see a picture of a red corvette, about few feet in front of you.

See it?

There, you just used your "wiring" or ability for Clairvoyance.

Your ability to “see” images and “read” (interpret information from the image) is your ability for Clairvoyance.
Spirit communicates in 'mental image pictures'.
Your ability to see “mental images” is also activating your “spiritual nature”.
The process is same, if you want insight into any situation.
Obviously there is more to this.
What separates a Clairvoyant who can “see” without doubt and a
Clairvoyant who is starting out?

Besides confidence from lot of practice...ease and clarity of seeing.

But what influences these ?

The degree of "stuff", between you and what you are looking at,
influences how easy it's to see and how clearly you see.

I'm going to qualify "stuff" as…self-doubts, pain, not wanting to see, limiting thoughts and beliefs (yours and others), social programming etc.
Developing clairvoyance then becomes about…clearing the "stuff" in the way. Clearing those cobwebs around your natural born gift.

Even for experienced clairvoyants some topics are easier than others.
What they have difficulty looking at, has a charge(or maybe even a trigger) for them personally, hence influencing ease and clarity of seeing.
The degree of your clairvoyance then equates to.…how clear your
"clairvoyant space" is.

those spiritually 'uncool' emotions are fuel for our ascension

We ushered in the year wearing this global "dark night of the soul". Lot of us wonder what is it going to be like. Especially in the years leading up to 2012.
Some are in fear. Some in euphoria.
I don't know what's going to happen but my personal considerations are......opportunity and choice .
Rumor has it, we are journeying our Ascension into 4th, 5th or 9th dimension. The promises of higher dimensions full of love and happiness.
Then there is it's ugly cousin (not Betty).
The looming possibility of complete control by those wanting to consolidate power into few hands.

What are we going to pick?
What we pick depends on how much we are controlled by Fear .
Dark and fear-based systems on 3D (Third dimension) are the dark inside of us, externalized
But how many of us dare look at our dark side?
Those lovely emotions we rather never own up to....shame, guilt, pain, repressed anger and so on.
What is the inner technology we already have available to combat this?
There is the notion "lf I look at my dark side, I'll give it more power".
Yes and No.

Isn't it also true "what we resist, persists" ?
The knee jerk mainstream New Age reaction to dark is burying dark with a synthetic benevolent smile and staccato barrage of "love and light" vernacular.....while continuing to repress those spiritually unpopular emotions.
But will that release the dark within us?
Doesnt the underlying emotion remain unresolved?
Is it going to hurt in the long run?
A sophisticated few embark on fixing other people or 'save the world' or "be there for others" BEFORE they can heal themselves.
Noble, but is it Honest?
Then my favorite people.....Spiritual teachers.
Notorious for sweeping their not-so-spiritual endeavors under the rug to put up a show of "having it together" for students (Supposedly).
Or is it inability to meet their human condition?
I don't what they were thinking but I know what I'm thinking........bullshit.
Teacher or Healer, how about working on ourselves FIRST?

What we don't let go, holds us down
Especially lower vibrational energy like suppressed anger, shame, guilt, fear and.... well you know the deal.
Like a heavy rock holding down a helium balloon. Like a dead weight.
One of the teachers in put it aptly "how low you can go, is how high you can go".
Reframed, how aware are you of energies in your lower 3 chakras?
As above, so below.
Ok, how do we release this dark parts of us we rather deny?
The hormone of Compassion. Our inner technology.
No, not the veiled "i pity you" self righteous version ( who are we to say any of the souls are not where they need to be?)
When we truly see, the dark has Value, these energies are transmuted to the energy Compassion
This transmutation takes place in the Thymus gland / High Heart Chakra (between Heart and Throat chakras).
These dark energies are now transmuted into "light" or higher frequencies (yes helping your ascension process).
Dark acts like as a firewood that burns to create fire, or "light". The vibrance of our inner flame.

How do we get there?
- First acknowledging our darker side exists, without any Self- judgement, whatsoever.
(The hardest part)
- Then start to ask "what is the Value I derive from this experience I attracted?"
(Remember, you as a Soul called in every experience to propel your evolution)
> Clear it - willingness, writing an angry letter you may never send, baseball bat with pillows to thrash ons, is a start.
(What you dont let go, holds you down in the spiral of spiritual evolution)
Dark has Value. Dark is our teacher.
There is nothing to learn from "light" really.
Light is accomplishment, of having transcended the Dark.
So really n the end, Dark serves the Light.
Consider this.
As a Soul, If you are interested in evolution, what do you think you are going to script in your life ?
everybody loves me, I love everybody, no issues kind of life
'Challenging' people and situations?

Yes, bingo! You got it, you sexy thang.
You need firewood for the fire. Your dark in you and in others you attract, are just that.
Finding a way to release clear those 'undesirable' emotions .......unprocessed anger, shame, guilt, fear transmutes to your "light".
Every layer of "negative" energy you release takes you a rung higher on the staircase to Ascension.
This is also the first step to recoding your DNA to 12 strands.
Clearing (not denying) negative emotions releases the Implants in your Astral body.
This "dark night of the Soul" is then.... availability....of opportunity.
Fuel for our Soul evolution.'s not always easy. It can be painful. To paraphrase a Leonard Cohen song "looks like freedom but it hurts like death....."

Ultimately, whatever choice we make is the right choice.
Every Soul is making choice based on what it needs to experience. For it's next step in evolution.
It's all in divine order.

Create what You want (or why you created what you didn't want)

"Can I create?" was never the question.
You created everything in your life. Including the things you did not want.
But why? How can you create what YOU want?

As I was re-writing "curriculum" for a manifestation class I started looking at what is traditionally taught in such Manifestation classes.
Ok, there is The Secret, Moses code, Abraham Hicks etc out there for a while...... but why is manifesting still hit or miss for us?
Consider these notions.....capacity, motivation and your ability to destroy.

"Can I create?" was never the question.
We are creative beings. We created everything in our life. Everything.
We co-created everything with "god" (replace with X40.2 if you don’t like the word god).
But we did design our Life Blueprint.

That’s when part of us protests…...."whoa, wait!"
"Then why did we create loneliness? Powerlessness? Pain? Scarcity?
Why not abundance? How about ease, instead of effort?
How about instant manifestation, for crying out loud?"

We said affirmations until our face turned blue but nothing changed. Why?
Consider .....capacitymotivation and your ability to destroy.

We only manifest, what we really, really, really believe we can have.
There are countless stories of people winning lotteries and spending it all in ridiculous span of time, then back to poverty again.
The Universe is reflecting back to you what you believe you can have. Not what you give lip service to. What we believe we can have is our havingness …....our perceived capacity.

You wouldn’t go buy exquisite furniture to fill a mansion if you have a one room run down shack. Would you?
You also find you only have money to live a run down shack lifestyle. Why?

The universe is giving you what you believe you can receive.

In theory, in principle and reality we CAN have ANYTHING we want and we DO have capacity for unlimited abundance. So what controls our Capacity?

The lies crammed into the space limits our Capacity.

Let me say that again…. all the lies cramped into our Capacity space limits the space.
Lies that make our capacity look like an 8 ounce bubble when your capacity really is this endless field with no horizon.
For every single one of us.
These are Lies we have hard time….Destroying.

We don’t see the lies. Sometimes what we see as our truth, is really someone else’s.

"im not good enough for it"
(the #1 killer for most of us)

"i really don’t want that"
(maybe it'll make your family or friends look bad because you are getting what they couldn’t. Then to make them feel good you make a misguided sacrifice)

"it'll make me look materialistic"
(jesus! you live in a material world, its ok to be a material girl. Identification with material is the only problem)

All self limiting. All Lies.
We will explore more these in a bit, something else first.

Destruction, is the mother of creation

Your ability to Destroy is your ability to Create - Your ability to destroy what is not true for you or doesn’t work for you anymore.
Destruction, also the new.
I don’t mean "destroy" in an Arnold Schwarzenegger Terminator “Ill be baaaack” sort of way.
I mean that you are done with it, in all its traces and forms. Not attached to it anymore.
But how do you destroy the lies?
First you have to come to a point to….SEE it.
See…a lie for what it is.
That is becoming aware of it. Your Awareness destroys the lie.

Awareness is a simple but very power device which has built-in arsenal to destroy lies and deprogram the programming.

Awareness is simple…just notice. Simple. No complication.
NOT judging yourself or others for what you notice – judgment or any sort of charge will perpetuate that lie. Just notice.
Then, take a deep breath……breathe out…letting it go. Seriously, that’s it.

For those of you who are cerebral like me and need a ritual, there is a tool we use at the Psychic school. A Rose.
Sit some where comfortable (please don’t be driving). Close your eyes.
Take a deep breath.
See a rose with your mind’s eye…throw the lies (the energy or feeling of it) you noticed into the rose.
Explode the rose. Poof, that’s it you are done.

If you couldn’t explode the rose or had a hard time doing it, usually it means you are having a hard time letting ‘it’ go.
Try one more time. If not, that’s ok.
Really it is. It’s just not time, yet.
Ok so what kind of lies are these anyway?

Who’s behind the wheel ? (Motivation) 

The one who drives is the one who controls where the vehicle goes.
Who is controlling your capacity to have?
We presume we are.
It's a lie. Not always.

So the question is...who are you creating for? Where are you creating from?

Often we live our lives to make someone else happy. To live someone else's dream.
Maybe for a mother, father, spouse or doing something society will consider being a "nice guy" or a "good girl".
The stance “Oh well, if it makes them happy I’m happy” is not only disservice to your Spirit but also a big bullshit.
We self sacrifice to make someone else in our life happy.
They maybe dead and gone but we are holding on to their limiting beliefs for them. It’s theirs, not ours.

How you can tell you are living someone else's dream?
This is the complicated part and where having tools and some sort of practice helps.

But sometime you can tell right off the bat.....when it takes a lot of effort to accomplish your dream or your plans seem to keep falling apart.
When you are in touch with flows.
You are also happy (what a concept!).

It took me over 10yrs and half finished business degree to realize, wanting to go to business school was to live my mother’s dream. Not mine.
Not going to business school was not a failure in my manifestation process, it was …feedback.
Feedback, that it was not mine. Now I could find where my heart was really at.

Find YOUR passion and you will find your purpose.

Self Image 
Your self image is another factor that controls your capacity.
How you see yourself controls what you believe you deserve and don’t.
It’s about your relationship with you.

Let me put it another way, what you see yourself through, controls your capacity.
What is the difference?

You see yourself ***through*** the lies which say who you are.
You don’t truly see yourself.

If you could, you see that you are spark of divinity.
In divinity there is no scarcity. Only abundance.

Your self image also controls the thoughts you think and the feelings you feel.
(yes, that’s why those affirmations you did last time didn’t permanently curb your negative thoughts)

Using your Awareness against yourself 

One of my teachers used to say, you can’t use your awareness against yourself.

The trap that comes with delving deeper into spirituality is this mass consensus on pulverizing Ego.
The result is more you want to put yourself last. Then follows resentment of short changing ourselves.

Sorry my brothers and sisters, we do it to ourselves. We engage in a win-lose relationship.
Others win, we lose.
How about win-win?

What you hold on to, holds you down

We seem to hold on to Pain, resentment, regrets and other forms of handicapping energies.
We are adept at holding on to pain and painful incidents. Why???


There is this misguided notion if you hold pain as a 'post it' note you will never repeat it.

Clever. But a slight problem here. The universal law says, like attracts like.

So we ending up attracting MORE OF THE SAME.
You attract more of what you hold on to.
If it’s pain, you get more of that. If it’s peace, you get more of that.

Where do we go from here? 

If you look at people around you, some have no problem creating wealth but have problem with relationships.
There are ‘unlucky’ with it or feel lonely in relationships they find themselves in.
Some are ‘lucky’ in relationships but struggle with money. Then some who struggle with creativity and passion.

The blocks are not same for everyone.

That’s why you find getting what you want is easier in some areas and struggle in others.
Those challenging area is where you might want to ask the questions…..

Who I’m I creating this for? Do I really believe I can HAVE this?
Also, consider this notion - see manifestation as a tool to get know... YOU.

Not, a prove-it test.
Not the notions that getting something outside of you, will somehow define who you are in the inside.
Reverse that thinking.

When I was trying to get into Business School I thought that would be my dreams come true. I had my identity built around that.
When it completely crashed was when I finally realized. It was not mine in the first place.
With that crashed my self identity i built around that. That brought me closer
Like the great master J (not Jay-Z, Jesus. a different brother) said "Know thyself".

These days, the Planet herself is goes through Destroying – letting go of what is not working particularly what is Toxic.

We are called up to do the same…detox…our body, thoughts, feelings and relationships that limit us of our true brilliance. Our inner divinity.

The question which begs fixating may not be "What I'm I leaving behind?" but "what do want to create?"

(c), Mikki Man, oct 08

unravelling the myth of "being psychic"

Both those, who love and hate it, can generously charge this topic with their preconceived notions.
but what is this crazy thing about? 

The word psychic or clairvoyant evokes so much imagery that people sometimes never quite get to the actual picture of what a psychic is.
The real picture is simpler.

So what IS the real picture?
There is no ‘real’ picture.
It's personal.

Let me explain.

Your ability to be psychic, clairvoyant or intuitive is........your sensitivity or your ability to "get a hunch".

"Don’t we all have that ability?" you say.
Thank you, for making my point. Yes we ALL do.

The ability to be Intuitive, Psychic or Clairvoyant is our birth right.
Some leave it open.
Others shut it down (especially if you were repeatedly told 'don't be so sensitive' ).

Being “Intuitive”, Intuitive, Psychic or Clairvoyant, simplified, is a product of two functions:
>> Sensing
>> Interpretation (of what you sensed)


Even those of us who don’t think we are Psychic have ‘sensed’ something at some point in our lives.
Often what we sense is abstract or intangible (at first) that we reject any usefulness.

Or may I boldly suggest, maybe our strong belief that we are not psychic or its not “logical” rejected the sensation without it’s day in court.
But there are also times we clearly interpreted it as useful information and maybe didn’t even realize we did.

How about times you just didn’t ‘feel right’ about a situation or person?
Another time you had this “urge” to visit a Bookstore and you ‘coincidentally’ ran into the exact card you wanted for your partner’s birthday.
Or this flash you had of your friend’s face at the stop light only to run into her at a gas station.

How many times have these kind of things happened to you?
We are constantly bombarded by “energy”.

We sense via different modalities.
Feelings .
Knowingness (You just know).

You may find you favor one over other.


The energy we sense is raw data. It requires you to interpret it into usable information.
But it’s often rejected because the raw data doesn’t make sense.

Sometimes sensing and interpretation can happen as a single act without obvious division. But there is an interpretation going on.
How objective one stays while interpreting, differentiates a good psychic from not so good ones (NOT the sensing part). This gets good psychics all the time.

People make erroneous read of the sensations because they project their beliefs and preconceived notions into the interpretation process.
Muddling the raw data. Making it, what its not.

So you can imagine this can be disheartening for someone who is just start to flex their Psychic muscle. They then tend not to trust what they are sensing. But the problem really is the “interpreting” part.

What is the way out of it?

Adopt the innocence of a child. Ask a lot of questions.

I’m I settling into presumptions?

What is this I’m sensing? I’m I making it up? (you may or may not)

what I’m I feeling? I’m I picking up on someone else?

People, often women, are so good feelers that cannot tell apart from what they are feeling from what they have taken on from someone else.

When you start asking questions instead of presuming or shutting the sensation down, you’ll be surprised where you get with it.
It’s like peeling the layers of an onion, until you get to the core.

(c), mikki mann feb 09